For those of you who have e-mailed me, Julie went to the doctor today and basically he said there is NOTHING he can do. The new wonder drug kills her white cells and unless we find a place that has clinical trials and they pay for it, all he can do is monitor her blood each week. Her white cells have gone down even more from her transfusion so she can’t be around alot of people.
If anyone knows a place that does clinical trials for bone marrow cancer, please let me know. I am doing all the research I can but this is hard. Only good thing is the doctor is sending someone to her home to take her blood weekly so she is not around alot of people with no white cells. She can easily get sick and die with no white count so hopefully this will protect her some. Her spirits are so-so right now and she is very tired but I won’t let her give-up.
Also, my son-in-law Michael Williams, leaves tomorrow morning from Colorado for Iraq at 9 a.m. He will be there at least one year. What I don’t get is the Army will not let my daughter and their children even go to the airport with him, they must say goodbye at a gym on base. Makayla is now 3 and this is very hard for her having her daddy leave. She was very young before when he was gone 17 months in Afghanistan but 3 you understand alittle more.
Please keep the troops in your prayers. This is not easy either and we tend to forget about them but we shouldn’t.
Jane, I will keep Julie in my prayers that someone will come forward to help her and that she stays healthy. I will also keep Michael and all the other men and women who are serving our country that they will be kept safe and return home soon.
Thanks Cara and Bob. Right now my heart is breaking in more pieces than it ever has. Julie said one thing to me last night that hit home so hard and I had no answer. She said that I don’t know how it feels to go thru this and another stem cell transplant and I don’t. She is my friend and I can’t give up on finding her help but then again, I don’t know what this feels like or how hard it is and I can’t understand how really bad you feel. At times you want to be die because you are so sick. I know she does not want her husband left with nothing if her insurance won’t pay and their income is too much for free help, you are stuck between a rock and a hard place. And she does not want that for him.
Today I pray more than ever for her and for my friends who have needed my prayers and still do. And I pray for the soldiers all the time especially now that my son-in-law will be over there again and I hate that. When we were in Vietnam, we lost so many and no one seemed to care. We wore missing in action bracelets and I still have mine. Maybe today, we should have just bracelets we wear for every soldier who is there and when they come home, we send them our bracelets. That way they would know we care and we are with them and also their family.
If anyone knows of a place where I could get bracelets made, be it metal like the Vietnam bracelets or rubber like the Katrini bracelets, Breast Cancer Bracelets, let me know. I would gladly start a program to have every soldier remembered while they are away and know that we are with them, that we do care, and they are important.
Sorry everyone but right now my heart is broken. I may have to sell my house because I can’t pay for it with all the rainouts and no pay and I am too old to go out and work for FEMA which is the only thing I can do right now. My friend is in trouble and my son-in-law is going somewhere I wish he did not have to go. There is no man in my life to take care of me, just me, and racing is how I support my son and pay my bills. So right now, I am a basketcase in more ways than one but I am trying. And if you do know where I can get these bracelets made, somehow I will.
